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Well, here we go again with the same old song. Never mind the last blog, of course it does bother me how life will go on.
So, there I was, sitting around and wondering why my life seems so empty and seems to pass me by, why I have no energy and mood for even cleaning up my dishes. Why everyday when I should do something for me, for my life, not abandon my university and myself, why still it happened.
Sitting and trying to figure out the reason for all that, I finally got it.
This reason had a name and about 50 million customers. It was known as vkontakte.ru , a russian analogue to Facebook.
In other words, I became a victim of the internet, a junkie. In particular we are talking about social networks.
I suddenly started to realize, that this day, I put myself in front of the computer and sat for hours and hours and was doing particularly nothing !!! Except sitting around on this damn site and checking out some stupid crap. By the time that I could valuably use for doing something for my education, or read a book, or do some sports, or maybe meet some mates.
I had to face this truth – internet took my life away.
It took quite a while to realize that. Previously, I spent my freetime not only by sitting on the inet, but playing some games on my notebook as well.
But this all has got to end. I want my life back.
And I already took the first step towards it – deleted all games from my computer. But unfortunately, there is some piece of work left to do – get rid of the internet addiction.
Question is – how? First of all (the link to the wikipedia entry of vkontakte.ru will tell you as well), my account on Russian-Facebook is not really completely deleteable. Even if it would be possible, making a new registration, refunding the friends I previously had in the list, and so on, would be a minor problem.
Not the site is the problem. The user is.
To be more accurate – the user’s unlimited access.
However, I had to get rid of this problem. And I suddenly remembered what my dad told me about real junkies, how they have to be treated. They have to be put away from the city and get into a Siberian village where in the radius of 500 km you got only Taiga and forests and ice and bears. By getting in such a location, the junkie completely forgets about his drug addiction. Just as long as he remains in this place.
In fact – the knowledge about no access to the addictive substance automatically reduces the negative effects connected to the cold turkey.
I know what to do. If I can’t completely take distance from the IT world, and need my notebook and the internet in particular for my education at the Berlin School of Economics, then at least to dramatically reduce my access would already do it. The thing is, if in order to go online it is required to go to my university instead of going to the office room in my flat and pressing the ON-button, it will happen much more seldom and only on purpose.
Plan looks as follows. On the very first possible day I’ll go to my provider and quit the contract (I’ll find a way to do this without having to wait for 2 years) concerning my internet. Then I’ll have no more internet at home. When it is necessary, about once per week, I’ll bring my notebook to the university, write my blog, download new files from the ILIAS-platform, and work with them at home. Offline.
And if I am online already, once per week, then of course it is alright to go to ICQ or the vkontakte-site, answer some mails, write some mails as well to someone… But not to meaninglessly hang in there for the whole day.
And in this way, I hope to come back into reality again. Hope it will work and I will have no obstacles.
